Thoughts on Projects

I have a few ideas I've been meaning to work on for a while. Stories with heavier themes that deal with the sort of despair I'm feeling these days. Stories about capitalism, ethics in robotics, nuclear waste, generational trauma. But every time I try to sit down and really work on these stories, I'm overcome with fear and anxiety about my own real life.

I want to express my fear and anger at the way things are right now, and I thought that creative writing would be a healthy outlet. But it's not an outlet so much as an ouroboros of despair that turns me into a depressed wreck, dwelling on negative feelings.

But now I'm thinking... maybe that's not the only kind of meaningful creative work to do in the current conditions. Maybe it's also incredibly important to write fun stories that bring joy and levity to people burdened by their reality. I think that's what I personally need most.

So maybe I'll put those dark sci-fi and horror ideas on the backburner for the moment.